my friend...

my friend is in love. the kind that makes your heart skips two beats, palms sweaty, feet jittery. the kind that gives you wings to fly and courage to stand tall. the once in a lifetime kind.

a generous, religious, selfless married woman, my friend has found her eternal soulmate in someone else's husband.

her heart has never been this full before and yet, she's never experienced this kind of emptiness either. instead of rejoicing and celebrating, she is slumped in a corner, silently crying her heart to pieces. what do you do when the one you ache for belongs to another? how do you explain to the person sleeping next to you that he no longer has your heart? and what do you tell the little ones when they see mommy walking out on daddy?

we judge too easily. i have always believed that those who fall for someone else's husbands/wives are home wreckers, vicious beings causing ripples in an otherwise calm water. but when i hear my friend pouring her heart out, i suddenly became a sympathizer. i begin to really understand that sometimes the best kind of love is also the worst kind of love. and no one really, is at fault.

"when you love someone, set them free. if they come back to you, then they're yours. if they don't, it was never meant to be..."

how do you let go of something you've been needing all your life? how do you make do with what you have when every bone in your body knows that there's something better out there? how do you tell your heart to stop loving the one you're suppose to love?

i wish my friend well. am with her, every step of the way. whatever she decides, good or bad, right or wrong, i pray that Allah has her in the palm of His hands...